Be Here Now
i found Ram Dass's book, Be Here Now, in the extensive library at the farm. or was it in a box somewhere? i can’t seem to remember exactly where it found me. but, when it did it was exactly when i needed it. it quickly became my scripture. each page cradled my longing for a teaching that could ease me through the transformation i was experiencing. that old archetype dying. it wasn't long before i was able to begin applying the poetic mantras to my daily life.
of course, there's always some kind of muse whence the song came to me. there was a girl. she was a catalyst in the lessons of youthful, reckless love and the struggle of intimacy without expectation of commitment. be here now. enjoy the ride. don't tell anyone how to live their life, but know how you will live yours - with boundaries on an open road to courageous self-security.
the story in this song actually happened. when i listen to it now i grin. always trust the symphony in your head. love without limit, but when you find your edge - respect it.
i can still see that yellow school bus, the lettuce and basil, and that twinkle in my higher reflection as if to say ‘It's a long road ahead, kid.‘ be present and kind. only good things can come of it.
this song is a story about the right of passage from youth to adulthood. the feeling of carelessness and commitment. the energy of a first love. one could say this is an anthem for the young and reckless. we've all been there at some point... my wish is that you feel a side of me most people don't know. the person i was before i became nahko. i share these songs from the bottom of my bear heart and i hope you get to share them with your tribe.
this song, in particular, doesn’t fit into the 18-21-year-old bracket. i cheated a little here because i just couldn’t not put this song on the record. it is such a crucial tune that defines this time, even though it was a little later in the timeline. i was probably nearly 22 when i wrote this song. i had already come back to Hawaii after meeting my mom, traveling northern California, went to Burning Man, and now was living on the ‘farm’ with ‘ol 7 Feathers (Jason Fox). you see, i’m an Aquarius. jason, a Taurus. both of us fiercely independent, it’s safe to say we butted heads from time to time. years later, i realized how impatient i was with him. i wanted to evolve more rapidly, be air, try things out, let it flow. jason liked his ways, fiercely earth, and was much slower to change. needless to say, in my youth, i was a firecracker. perhaps some would say i still am. instead of focusing on pining after someone i wanted to keep and be just for me, my medicine became the fact that people always leave and go. with that in mind, at that time, i could try to live without the suffering of the departure of the physical, be present in each moment, and live in gratitude for time well spent. each notch i climbed in my great wall to consciousness led me higher to reasoning and i let my first archetype die, little by little. after all, before Hamakua who the hell was i?